Why losing your Job is a good thing!

Why losing your Job is a good thing!

Let me start off...

by saying that there is better things in life than losing your job (obviously) - especially when you get fired. Not knowing what´s next can cause us feelings of slight anxiety, self-pity and shame.

I only met very few people in my life, who admitted honestly and forthrightly, when asked, that they lost their jobs due to termination. To fail is still off-limits in the modern business world. As long as there is no one else to blame, we remain silent or deck it out rather than owning it...

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Owning what? 

Owning that you haven´t been the best version of yourself why so ever. Owning that you weren´t able to meet your company´s or bosses expectations. Owning that you didn´t really feel like a perfect fit to your team the whole time. Owning that there were tasks you felt overwhelmed with and couldn´t manage to keep up with - or owning that you felt unchallenged and bored most of the time. A job is a job is a job. It´s not always life fulfilling - which makes it even harder sometimes, if you´re person who is seeking reason in the things you do. I can sing a song of that.

I have to admit: Job titles and the general expectations of starting and following a career appealed to me too after graduating from college. But it didn´t take long - about three months -until an underlying feeling of discomfort and being "in the wrong place" occurred and never left me, until I left the job. I wanted to move on and restart in a younger company. Something, I thought, I could identify with...

It took me almost two more years, two more jobs and two terminations, until I realised these terminations were gifts and chances to take a step closer to my truth, which I didn´t dare to take myself at that time. So after my second termination I was ready to face my truth and overcome my confusion and self-doubt. My body told me already in the first place: After every termination I felt released and freed. But again: General expectations which I still held deep inside of me told me different and interrupted my trust in my own truth. I felt like I failed and was different than other people. Different than my coworkers, who always made it look like they loved working over-hours and pretended to be highly committed to their job, while I felt like the company is highly exploiting young people seeking for a chance to proof themselves...

So losing my job was a big time wake-up call slapping me right in the face and saying

"Why are you still here? You didn´t have the balls to go, so now they make you go! Perfect, so you don´t have to take the blame of leaving a financial secure situation not knowing what´s next!"

The thing I learned though was:

Giving away your power over your own decisions and gut feeling sucks. It doesn´t feel like your own choice anymore.

I felt pushed out of my job, rather than leaving it freely. But then I started owning it. Owning that I was too unexperienced and insecure to just leave the job I didn´t like the whole time. And I forgave myself. I started owning, that I wasn´t "good enough" for the jobs - not good enough, because I wasn´t into selling "flash sale products". Not good enough, because I wasn´t driven by working as fast as I could to raise the company´s numbers. I wasn´t into lunches at my desk and staying until 8pm, only so I could compete with my coworkers. 

I realised instead what I was into: Working creatively, having the freedom to make my own choices and working at hours on my terms. I am not made for the 9-5 office job. Sure, maybe I had bad luck and there are other companies out there, where I would have felt the way I wanted to feel. I´m not denying that.

But I needed a change, and I needed to give myself the attempt to find out what else is possible. I decided to keep my eyes and ears wide open and to look for anything but another startup job with a temporary contract. And shortly after I found what I was looking for...(tbc)

Losing my previous jobs make me realise what went wrong and what I needed to change for myself, to be a happier person. Losing my jobs gave me time to to think - time I wasn´t able to take for myself while working. Losing my jobs made me realise, that a job is still just a job and there are more important things in life to nourish and take time for. It made me realise that I will never sell my own interests again and pretend anything I´m not.

I am positive now that there is a job for everyone that suits their talents and drive. Always trust your calling (or at least acknowledge when you don´t feel at the right place) and give it a shot. Think about what it needs for you to be happy. Does the job itself doesn´t fulfill, inspire, or challenge you to grow? Is it the people or the work environment you don´t feel comfortable in? For those of you who feel stuck right now: Keep listening! And trust me, you can always manage to live with less money for a while (as long as you have access to welfare support) rather than continously stressing out over a job you don´t like working for. You own yourself to try everything to be the best version you can be - and this is to be happy. It´s not about being pumped at all times or just "having fun" everyday at your job. But it´s about a deeper happiness inside of you, that you feel like you made the right choices in your own interests and to feel like you´re growing and evolving in the direction you wish to grow. 

Sara Umbreit

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